Archive | May, 2012

Could You?

30 May

Tonight I went out on a 4 mile speed walk – at one point I decided to see if I could run.  I haven’t run since I was in my early 20s, I remember I used to run from the bus to home, not regularly, not properly and very soon after that time I got sick and the weight went on.

While I was big I often wondered what I would do in an emergency, if I really needed to run would I be able to, I remember seeing the crowds running from the tsunami in Thailand and thinking if that was me, I wouldn’t have been able to run away?  If I was crossing a road and a bus was about to hit me, would I physically be able to move fast enough to get out of the way?

I did run tonight, it was far easier than I thought it would be, it was good to give it a go, although the impact isn’t recommended for my reconstructed knee however at least I know now that I could run if I needed to?  That’s a good feeling!

The last couple of weeks have led to a new positivity, it’s been a while coming but it now feels very comfortable, a friend commented that he was really enjoying my positive tweets, that’s nice. It’s helped me deal with the news that someone I care very much about has been struggling, he’s not well and it’s come as a shock and there’s been a lot of hugging and support. It reminds me how short life is and how you really need to make the most of it.  I’m hoping some of my positivity is helping.



Having to explain?

26 May

I had lunch with a friend in a nice Italian place. He’s fit too and careful about what he eats, we did though decide that as we’d both been good that we would treat ourselves to pasta and cheese.  Mine was delicious however after eating about two-thirds I knew I was full, (I did check by just waiting a bit and letting my brain and stomach talk to each other) so put my cutlery down. When the waitress arrived, she picked up my friend’s empty bowl but looked at mine and asked me if there was anything wrong with it?  I explained that I don’t eat large portions and I was full, she looked very surprised as if no-one ever said that?

I was disappointed, firstly my friend is a bloke, he’s six foot tall and can put away way more calories than me, his portion was the same size as mine so really I shouldn’t need or eat the same amount anyway?? Secondly by not stuffing myself, I enjoy my food more and I also didn’t ruin the rest of the day feeling full and bloated?

Don’t ever feel you have to eat everything on your plate because you were brought up not to waste food or you feel you should because you’ve paid for it,  eat until you think you’re full, stop and then push your plate away, if the service is slow and it’s hanging around, cover with your napkin to distract you. It can be done, even with the nicest food – what’s best, eat enough so you enjoy and savour it or overeat, feel crap and have that as your memory of the meal?

I was pleased to have also tested my willpower, I’d struggled this week, thanks to a team meeting and way too many cake bites – especially the caramel biscuit ones! I was beginning to wonder if I still had it in me to be able to do the 25% rule when out!  Good news is I can. And before you all say that you have no willpower, 3 years ago I had none whatsoever, if food was there I was hoover it up. What motivated me is that I know now about the brilliant life that being smaller has brought me, there is no better way of knowing the effort it takes to make a decision NOT to eat something.

That is coupled with knowing on a hot summer day, I am comfortable, my skin isn’t stuck to itself, I’m not embarrassed at how much I’m sweating, my feet aren’t swollen and blistered, I’m wearing lovely clothes – including a pair of skinny trousers and I sat on the ground and got up without the need for help. Life’s pretty good, I want to hold onto that as tightly as I can, I don’t want that old life, it’s better on this side, much better and it makes every moment of NOT eating something or being up early walking or in the pool and gym worth it.


20 May

Following the bug last week I am now full of energy!  The bug has now made its way around my friends and work colleagues and I got away quite lightly it seems, most seem to have ended up with nasty chest infections. Given how awful I felt I’m really feeling for them.

Also given some family news this week, you can never take your health for granted, I intend to look after mine as much as I can.

I’m back in the gym, eating well and this week thanks to being able to build up my leg muscles, now speed walking, my knees are now better protected and there is less risk of injury. It’s a bit competitive but fun!   I’m doing between 3 and 4 miles and it’s feeling pretty good. It felt like time to mix up the exercise a bit, my schedule is a bit manic at the moment so I needed  things I could do that didn’t rely on the gym or the pool and hopefully if summer ever arrives it’ll be a nice thing to do! At the moment I’m still in a fleece and gloves first thing!


Down time

12 May

This week the common cold managed to strike me down, I’d done very well in staying healthy for a long time but I had to admit defeat.

It hit me for six and on Wednesday I barely left my bed as I struggled with the massive headache, streaming eyes, running nose, tight chest and exhaustion. At one point I was worried it might be man flu 😉

The exhaustion has been the worst thing, however at the end of a week when I’ve done very little activity I actually feel great, I’m rested, my skin’s clear and looking forward to getting back in the gym tomorrow (these arms need to lift weights!).

One of the reasons for not rushing back is to avoid aggravating the problem I have with my vocal cords, if I end up with a cough there is always the risk that they will react and start going into spasm and it’s just not worth the horror of all of that starting again.

I have missed being active, I do enjoy it a lot however I also understand the value of down time and listening to your body. Mine told me it had had enough and needed a break!

Looking forward to next week though, hitting it hard, hopefully re-measuring too!

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