Archive | January, 2013

Positive thought

27 Jan

Despite all that has happened over the last year, I can confidently say that there are positives. It’s been a big personal challenge to deal with everything but throughout I haven’t returned to the eating habits and lack of activity that blighted so much of my life – for me that’s been such a move fowards.

To know that going for a 5 mile walk will help more when things are really tough than a six pack of Walker’s Cheese and Onion is pretty big for me! It has also probably been the turning point of knowing that the changes I’ve made to my life are permanent.



27 Jan

I don’t know about you but I’m struggling this January. As the picture shows, it’s grey, without colour…..

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January’s always a challenge for me, I suffer from a degree of SAD (Seasonal Affected Disorder) so by the turn of the year the short days are beginning to get to me. This is added to this year by a stressful job and a feeling of being overwhelmed. There are a lot of personal decisions to be made, it’s all positive but my head often does feel fit to burst! This is impacting my sleep as well so there is a constant feeling of being tired.

I’m also feeling a little wobbly physically, my job has also made an impact on how often I can get to the gym or the pool and thanks to the stress, me and my team have probably been eating our way through January!  This is a great pity as they’re the fitist bunch of lovely people I’ve ever worked with!

So does any of this sound familiar? And what are we going to do about it?

For me, I’m list building, I like a good list, in fact it may even become a spreadsheet at some point!  Some things are already happening, others need to be progressed.

  • Dealing with the ‘head stuff’ – if you don’t do that you are banging your head against a wall, even if you manage to carve a path through it at the moment, you are probably going to have to face it again sometime soon so don’t put it off.  That for me has been a revisit to my therapist and the commencement of another programme of hypnotherapy. We often expect that we should be able to deal with everything ourselves, often we can but sometimes professional advice can really help. Are you constantly coming up against the same issues and questions?
  • Looking at what, why and when you eat – is it associated with stress, when you’re bored, cold, not well??
  • Sleep is so important, it’s when our bodies repair themselves and when our heads re-set. If you’re not getting enough quality sleep everything will suffer. I’m also using the hypnotherapy to help with this. There is a lot of stuff out there you can read about sleep, I can’t recommend sorting this out enough. Look at your sleep patterns, are you always tired, can’t really shake the fatigue, does it affect everything else. If you’re always saying ‘I’m tired’, it’s time to do something about it.
  • What’s important?  What are your values, why are you feeling overwhelmed, often this feeling comes when our behaviour is at odds with our values?  For me, the fact that my job entails longer and longer hours often unplanned resulting in the things I enjoy being postponed goes against my values and makes me anxious and angry – I have to deal with this!  Do you feel overwhelmed too – list down why.
  • What fun stuff do I want to do?  What gives me a buzz, makes me feel alive?  Last weekend during the snow I got outside with the cameras and loved every moment, this morning I am writing this, I love writing and hopefully helping others with my ramblings? Yesterday I walked for 4 miles, out of town into the countryside in bright winter sunshine, that makes me feel good too?  What makes you smile, feel fulfilled, what’s really important to you and what may be getting in the way of being able to do them?
  • How can I push myself – I’ve found over the last couple of years, having a challenge in mind has helped me to focus. For me physical challenge has been something totally new over the last few years – so when I first starting getting fit having the Swimathon to train for was both a novelty (me training!!??) and a great focus, I like structure so it was good to track my distances etc. Since then I’ve used climbing holidays with friends or even my knee surgery as a focus.  Now I find myself perhaps wanting more? So what could that be? I’ve acheived more in the last 3 years than I even believed possible – is there more?  What could it be for you, could you push past what you believe is possible?

As this is a blog about losing and keeping weight off, I should mention that I’m not panicking in any way about the wobbliness, why? Because I know I can deal with it, I’m not going to resort to eating a family size pizza with a 6 pack of cheese & onion chaser and give away my swimsuit, kickboard trainers and sports bra. This is a blip, but because I changed my lifestyle, it won’t take anything major to put right, just some positive thought and focus.  It will also probably be fun!  So stay positive!

Finally as I’ve mentioned many times in the past, don’t be too hard on yourself, don’t set big goals, set small ones that you stand a chance of achieving, there is no time limit, the stronger you become by being able to achieve, much more becomes possible.

Clear Air!

13 Jan

photo(7)Today was a glorious day, bitterly cold, however the air was clear and the skies blue. I walked yesterday but in the gym, today was too good a day to do that again so I wrapped up warm and set off. It cleared the cobwebs and gave me some head space.  I did buy some winter gear so it was good to give it an outing!

Last week was a real up and down one, I had a minor meltdown at work, just got totally overwhelmed at the sheer amount of stuff I was having to plough through, tears and frustration followed which in the end was a good thing, people realised I wasn’t infallible and I got a lot of support. It also made me realise I needed to revisit the hypnotherapy, the workload won’t be changing however I can look at how I deal with it.  It was pointed out that I had dealt with a hell of a lot of over the last few months, you don’t come out without a few dents, yes I’m stronger in a lot of ways and I have also learnt the value of being able to ask for help, you don’t have to do anything alone.

So as I walked, taking in the clear air, my head cleared a bit too. I still find it amazing that I get so much out of being active, I never lose sight of that, from almost nineteen stone and totally inactive to what I can do today. I never take it for granted, it’s hard work, but not a chore to eat well or to keep active.

My twitter feed is now full of active people, I’m inspired by those who do far more than me, I’m envious of their marathons, cross country runs and the like, but for me the journey has been just as important. Sometimes I’m a little too hard on myself, after all I never did any real sport/physical exercise ever, so even putting on trainers is still a fabulous thing!

I’ve enjoyed my weekend, over 5 and a half miles walked and a session in the gym with some weights which I still love. So let’s hit the coming week and see what happens, it’s going to be a busy one but I don’t have a feeling of dread (or sadness) and I’m looking forward to the therapy sessions. I’m ready for them now and to share them with you.




5 Jan

Updated my photograph gallery tonight. It still feels a bit odd to see the ‘before’ set. However it does help to keep focused.

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